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3 Years Post Open Heart Surgery

It's been 3 years since my Open Heart Surgery...Time flies... It's funny, I remember everything about that day as if it were just last week. It's been long enough, time for me to let go of the emotions of that day. I worked the entire day before my surgery, made sure my desk was clear, no open projects or quotes. I spent the remainder of the evening in bars. I started at Empire Pizza and Bar drinking with my ex-wife, daughter and her friend. A couple beers, a couple shots talking with friends I had known for years..in some respects I was saying goodbye. When I was leaving I asked Debbie (ex-wife) to come outside, I wanted to apologize for all the hurt, in case things didn't go well I wanted her to know I still loved her. Forward to the next bar, Hartlands which is close to my apartment. I sat and drank with the regulars that were there. Although I was surrounded by people I knew (granted all were "bar" friends) I felt alone. The woman I was dating at the tim
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It's Going to be a Great Day!

It's going to be a Great Day! Every morning I wake up, I believe it's going to be a Great Day!  First, I woke up. Sadly there are those that did not. I've had two small heart attacks (if there is such a thing) and Double Bypass Heart Surgery, I live with heart disease. I believe everyday is an Amazing Day. I've decided my daily mantra is to tell anyone and everyone I come into contact with "It's going to be a Great Day". Yes, I understand my day may go to shit 15 min after starting work, but I am going to start every day being positive.  Happiness is a CHOICE!  I understand we all have "things" going on in our lives, not all of it is good. I have struggles myself but we don't have to let them control us.  I'm reminded of a quote I read -   “It's not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters.” — Epictetus I've, as many others, have read quotes or seen the meme's that advise to be kind, to say nice words or do ki

Turning 59, Final Year in My 50's...

  I recently turned 59, the final year in what has been one the most challenging decades of my life, and it's not quite done. As I stand on the front porch of 60 I needed time to let it sink in, reflect on my journey to this point... here are a few of the thoughts that ran through my head. 4 Days Post-surgery The decade started with me having two small heart attacks that required two rounds of Angioplasty wherein they inserted a total of 3-1/4 inches of Stents to keep the blood flowing around my heart. A short 6 years later chest pains again sent me to the doctor where they attempted a 3rd and failed Angioplasty procedure. So on March 18th 2020 as South Carolina was being shut down for "Covid 19" my chest was cracked open to perform Double Bypass Heart Surgery. Growing up I was always active and healthy, I don't recall really ever being sick. Now I live with heart disease. These last 9 years I've been witness to my two daughters growing from teenagers to young ad